Celebrating with Purposeful Giving
Today, as we remember what would have been James' 38th birthday, the JPO Foundation is honored to commemorate his legacy by awarding a series of grants to organizations dedicated to the education of healthy relationships and crisis mental health services. This year alone, we've proudly disbursed a total of $36,200 to deserving institutions, with more on the horizon.


We extend our heartfelt congratulations to the esteemed recipients:

• Sylvania Area Family Services
• ProMedica Teen PEP
• University of Toledo Kobacker Center
• University of Toledo Counseling Center
• The distinguished 2023 JPO Physician of the Year - Dr. Daniel McCarthy from UTMC
• Dani's Place

This monumental endeavor would not have been possible without the unwavering support of our JPO sponsors, donors, and volunteers. Your commitment and generosity have been instrumental in turning our vision into reality, and for that, we are eternally grateful.


Our day began with a touching Mass in James' honor at the Oblates Chapel at St. Francis. The memories shared and sentiments expressed by Fr. O, Fr. Zobler, Fr. Rose, Joe Sweeney, and Maureen DeLaney from James' beloved school provided solace and strength to all present. In particular, Fr. O's uplifting message – reminding us that James is not gone, but simply waiting for us in heaven – brought immense comfort to our hearts.


Today, and always, we remain inspired by James' spirit and are committed to advancing the cause he held dear. As we look to the future, the JPO Foundation will continue to champion mental health awareness and education, keeping James' memory alive through our endeavors.


Thank you to everyone for standing with us on this journey of love, remembrance, and hope.

A Weekend of Tennis, Brotherhood, and Mental Health Awareness
The picturesque Graul Varsity Tennis Complex at the University of Dayton came alive on September 15th and 16th, hosting the 2nd Annual James O'Connell Memorial Tournament. With participation from the tennis powerhouses of Ball State, Xavier, Northern Kentucky, and UD, it was not just a showcase of premier collegiate tennis but also a poignant tribute to the legacy of James O'Connell.

Beyond the electrifying matches, the tournament embodied the spirit of camaraderie, sportsmanship, and unity – all hallmarks of James' life and memory. The atmosphere was thick with emotion as the UD Coach, Ryan Meyer, and James' parents, Kevin and Deb O'Connell, addressed the Friday night dinner gathering. Their heartfelt words about mental health and crisis intervention struck a chord with everyone present, including UD Women's Tennis and Golf team members.

Highlighting the dedication of the UD Athletic Department towards fostering mental well-being amongst student-athletes, the JPO Foundation proudly contributed $2,500 towards this noble initiative. It's inspiring to witness how athletic platforms are being leveraged to underscore the significance of mental health, a topic often sidelined.

Connor Bruce, UD's top singles player, eloquently summed up the event's spirit. As quoted on the UD website, he remarked, "This weekend was a great start for Flyer tennis and for an even better cause remembering former UD tennis great James O'Connell."

A special shout-out to UD Coach Ryan Meyer and the retired MSU Coach Gene Orlando – their unwavering support and dedication have been instrumental to the JPO Foundation.

A heartfelt thank you goes out to every coach, player, teammate, and friend of James who made this weekend unforgettable. Here's to more such tournaments where sports and societal change converge!
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​The support from the community during our 2nd Annual James P. O'Connell Charity Tennis Event in July was truly remarkable. The event encapsulated the spirit of "It's All About Love," rallying everyone together to contribute towards raising vital funds for local nonprofits that align with the JPO mission.

Through the incredible generosity of our sponsors, players, community partners, and donors, we are proud to share that we are poised to allocate nearly $50,000 back into our community this year. These funds will be instrumental in addressing the pressing mental health needs of young adults, fostering healthy relationships, and providing crisis mental healthcare. Last year, funds were distributed to Eric Fox Teen Pep Scholarship, Luken T Boyle Campaign of Kindness, JED Foundation, UTMC Department of Psychiatry, ProMedica Teen PEP Program, Speak Peace, American Foundation for Suicide prevention, and The One Love Foundation in Honor of Yeardley Love Inc. We will keep you posted as we distribute throughout the year!

The involvement and support of the Jensen brothers were a highlight of the day. We are grateful for their commitment to this cause. Murphy's addresses to both adults and children left an impact, creating moments that will be remembered forever.

A heartfelt expression of gratitude is owed to our 40+ sponsors whose support made this event possible. We extend the same appreciation to our 30 teaching professionals and 12 community partners who dedicated their invaluable time and expertise, collectively enriching the experience of over 250 adults and children during this fantastic day.

For a recap of the day's events and an insight into the JPO mission, we invite you to view the wonderful video provided by BCSN.

We welcome your support as we continue to support the mission of the foundation. If you're inclined to contribute, please consider making a donation. For those interested in volunteering, becoming future event sponsors, or seeking more information about the JPO Foundation, please refer to the Contact Us link.

 Stay tuned for the announcement of the date for our 2024 "It's All About Love" tennis event. Your continued support ensures the continuity of this meaningful endeavor!
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On October 1st, Lauren Jackson organized a team in James’ memory for the Toledo Out of the Darkness walk. Lauren is a member of our  JPO Foundation committee and one of James’ closest friends. Lauren, along with James’ friends and family raised awareness for suicide and suicide prevention. Events like these, bring light to the topic and makes it easier for survivors to talk about their loved one. Together, their team raised almost $2,000! These donations will go towards the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention (AFSP) to invest in new research, create educational programs, advocate for public policy, and support survivors of suicide. We are so lucky to have this organization researching, educating, bringing survivors of suicide loss together, and honoring our loved ones lost.

On September 23rd, 2022, Deb O'Connell, was honored to share James's story and the mission of the JPO Foundation for ProMedica's TeenPEP Fall Training Session. This session was held at Toledo Hospital to train over 150 area high school student leaders into becoming youth educators in order to present to their peers ways to cope with mental health issues, suicide, sexual assault, and teen dating violence. This program is a youth led primary abuse prevention program that involves students in creating a positive environment where responsible decisions and respect are valued.

The JPO Foundation is a proud partner and donor to this program as its strategic goals align perfectly with our mission to help people who find themselves in toxic relationships. If you are a student or parent of one that you think would like to be involved with this groundbreaking initiative, please let us know through our Contact page and we'll get you in touch with the the appropriate person, answer any questions, and be happy to get you any additional information you might be interested in.

The University of Dayton Men's Tennis program hosted the First Annual James O'Connell Memorial Invitational on September 23 and 24 at the beautiful Graul Tennis Complex on the UD campus. UD, Xavier, Ball State, and Northern Kentucky competed in the hidden dual matches under perfect weather conditions in James's memory. The level of tennis was fantastic and it was a terrific tribute to James who loved every minute of his four years as a Flyer.
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The O'Connell family would like to extend a big thank you to Coach Meyer, James's teammates, Tom Murphy, Jameson Downs, and Mike Rohanna, along with the whole UD Athletic Department for making the weekend such a success. It was great to reminisce with James's teammates, Coach Brumbaugh, and parents from those fun years. It also was a pleasure to get to know the current team and many of their parents. UD will always have a special place in our hearts! Go Flyers! 

The JPO Foundation was pleased to present a check on October 3, 2022 to the UTMC Department of Psychiatry that will help fund the new UT Center for Social Neuroscience that will study the social components of depression, suicide, and other psychiatric illnesses. Their work in particular will focus on the impact of educating and modeling healthy relationships for at-risk adolescents, their parents and those with whom they interact with the ultimate goal of increasing resilience to, and ultimately avoidance of the negative impact of abusive relationships on mental and physical health. We are thrilled to partner with UTMC on this initiative. Today would have been James's 37th birthday. Our hope is that all the funds we raise will keep another family, James's hundreds of friends, teammates, coaches, and colleagues from having to endure another tragedy like this.

​On Saturday, June 11, at TWOS Athletic Club, the JPO Foundation held the 1st Annual James P. O'Connell "It's All About Love" Tennis Charity Event. With perfect weather(Thanks James!) over 350 kids and adults enjoyed a fun filled day of tennis clinics, a professional exhibition, lunch, and wonderful fellowship.

French Open Doubles Champions Luke and Murphy Jensen outdid themselves with their enthusiasm and excitement throughout the day. Murphy's addresses to the adults in the morning and then to all the kids in the afternoon were just terrific and will long be remembered.
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Due to the generosity of over 40 sponsors and of course everybody that attended, the JPO Foundation raised more than $30,000 that will go to local mental health providers with the hope of keeping another family from this nightmare.

The event was such a success, we are hoping to bring back Luke and Murphy again next year. It will probably be in July 2023 after Wimbledon. We'll get more details out soon.

The O'Connell family and everybody at the JPO Foundation would like to thank all the teaching pros, volunteers, and planning committee members who worked so hard to make this event a fantastic living legacy to James.

We hope you enjoy these photos and videos. We can't wait for next year!  

One year. How has it already been one year since our family’s lives have been forever changed?


There are so many things that I wish we could do over. I wish he could take back the one decision that is impossible to take back. I wish I would have spoken the truth to him about the unhealthy relationship he was in for so many years. I wish I would have had the honest and difficult conversations with him over the years on whether he was truly happy. I wish I would have recognized the constant threats and emotional abuse he was continuously enduring the last weeks of his life and put a stop to it.  I wish I would have truly slowed down and took the time to find out how their relationship got to the point that it did. There were so many red flags over the years but I never mustered up the courage to tell him how I truly felt about his relationship. There are so many regrets and that is something that I believe will always way heavily on me.


If you find yourself in what you think is an impossible situation and are completely trapped by a significant other, please remember James’ story. If a person truly loves you, they do not bully or threaten you. They do not isolate you from family and friends and continually downplay your accomplishments. They respect you and don’t take advantage of you financially. They support you in good times and in bad. When someone you love is in a relationship that is doing nothing but bringing them down, say something. Sure, they might become defensive at first but it’s better to say something, then nothing at all. If you are in a relationship with someone and you see that they are struggling with their mental health, speak up. Tell someone, anyone.


Please remember that everything is fixable. The pain and anguish that you feel is not going to last forever. Life is hard, but I promise you can do it. You are strong enough. Seek out help. Please don’t allow yourself to make a decision that will break so many, even if it seems like your only logical choice at that point. The only one who knows what’s in your head is you. No one can help you, if you don’t tell someone.


I was talking to a friend the other day and I think what hurts me so badly about losing someone to suicide is that no matter what, you know they were in pain before they died. When I’ve lost people in other ways like to Cancer or Parkinson’s Disease, they were given medication to help their pain and ultimately passed peacefully. If you lose someone in an accident, although tragic, it’s appropriate to assume they probably wouldn’t have felt much pain, as most of the time it’s instantaneous. But with suicide, you just know they absolutely were in pain for months, possibly years, and that is such a hard pill to swallow. When someone dies from an illness or an accident we can ease the pain by saying things like ‘they wouldn’t have known’ or ‘they passed peacefully’ but with suicide we don’t have that. They were in unbearable pain and that’s just the bottom line. There is no justifying the death to make it easier on our ourselves. It hurts knowing that he was in pain for months or possibly longer before leaving this earth. James deserved happiness in this life and to know he didn’t have that at the end and couldn’t go on will haunt me for the rest of my life.


As a society we need to do better with mental health. The system has failed us all. Our system almost always requires long periods of waiting and stigmatizes care that leads people holding out until the very last minute to get help, if ever, at a time when they really can’t afford to wait. If someone is determined to take their own life, there is truly only so much you can do unless they are willing to get help. However, we can do much more to make people feel less embarrassed and ashamed so that they are willing to get help. People want to help and people do love you. You are not a burden. You are not a hassle. You are needed. Talk about it. I can’t help but think that if there wasn’t such a stigma and so much embarrassment around depression and suicide, maybe he would have reached out.


Imagine a scale being tipped back and forth until one side is finally outweighed by the other-a trigger, a moment of impulsivity, a window of opportunity that disrupts the delicate balance that allowed us to survive. That back and forth is exhausting, and it muddles our judgement. If love were enough, we would see much fewer deaths by suicide. It’s so painful to accept that we can love someone to the moon and back, and that’s still not enough to make them stay. It’s so easy to fall down the rabbit hole of thinking of what we could have done differently. Its gut wrenching because it deludes us into thinking that we had some kind of control over the outcome. Even as someone who works in mental health, I missed the signs. It’s still an ongoing process for me to fully surrender to the fact that no one-no matter how smart, how loving, how determined they might be, can keep someone alive. Did we make mistakes over the few weeks and months, I’m sure we did. But when a pot of water is on the stove, even if you turn up the flame, you aren’t responsible for when the water boils. If left on the burner long enough, it was always going to come to a boil.


But what I have come to slowly realize over this last year is what our love did do. It made their time here on earth so much more meaningful. It sustained them in many, many dark moments that I’m sure we never knew about. What I do know is that sharing his story has helped others and I will continue to do so as long as it is making a difference. I will do whatever I can to help people talk about unhealthy relationships and mental health struggles. Help me share this. Share your own story. Be brave and help me stop this from happening to someone else. It’s scary and uncomfortable but I hope when you see how our family has struggled, you will join in our fight. James’ death says nothing about how much we loved him, or how much he loved us. But our grief does-because the pain that we are experiencing in his absence speaks volumes of how deeply we cherished him and still do.


What I also have been learning this last year is that grief is a powerful teacher. It has challenged me, again and again, to recommit to living a life filled with meaning. To give my heart away freely and readily, to speak the truth, and most importantly to let the life I lead to be a living dedication to this person I loved so much. I have learned to live alongside my grief and to live for everything my brother stood for: love, compassion, courage, and joy. James’ death has taught me that grief doesn’t have to consume you and that I need to let if bring me closer to my purpose. This grief is something that I will live with for the rest of my life. Some days will be okay and other days I will want to crawl into bed and just shut off from the rest of the world. Every day is different and that is okay.  We are all part of the legacy of James, and every moment we choose to live fully and love deeply, we bring a beautiful part of him back to life. Fight for your own life the way you desperately wish you could have fought for his . 


Missing my big brother every day. 
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I was nervous before the event and was a little worried about doing a book event…without the actual book. I am so thrilled with how it turned out and look forward to another upcoming event in my community. We had tables for children to draw what they thought was under the sheet of The Kindness Machine cover, coloring pages, bookmarks and kindness rocks to take home. A huge shoutout to my mom who has been painting rocks for months! She came up with creative and colorful designs and we added QR codes that link to my website that we modge podged on the bottom. We encouraged the kids who visited our table, to take a rock and hide it somewhere around town. They were very excited about this take away! Thanks mom! 

One of the moms who attended the event shared with me that her little daughter LOVES her rock. She said, “It has become a staple in our day to day. It goes to bed with her and sleeps on her dresser, or in her bed, sits beside her while she eats breakfast, rides along to daycare in the cupholder, and relaxes the day away in her cubby at school. Some kids snuggle blankets, while others carry rocks.” The icing on the cake was seeing a few pictures depicting those examples! Hilarious and adorable! 

Remember that our book cover does not show the entire kindness machine. It was very exciting to see what children thought was under the sheet and their designs were creative and hilarious! We saw small machines, big machines, colorful machines and some all one color. Some children didn’t think it was a machine beneath the sheet, but rather a thing. For example, they thought there was a wolf under the sheet, a ghost, a dinosaur (which he said was the “kind-o-saurus) and a kind frog! I enjoyed questions from parents/grandparents asking about the book and inspiration. Thank you to all who attended. I truly appreciate your support! A massive shoutout to husband and illustrator, Chad, who helped me set up the event and helped it run smoothly. 

I encourage you to take a moment to be kind today and everyday. Be kind to others but also remember be kind to yourself. You are loved. Make today count. 

September is Suicide Prevention Month. According to the World Health Organization, one person dies from suicide every 40 seconds. As you know we lost my brother James to suicide 6 months ago.   As I reflect upon the significance his death has had on myself and my family, we continue to ask ourselves what we can do to help change the reality of this terrible statistic.

One thing that I continue to hear on a regular basis from James’ countless friends, family, and coworkers is how kind, loyal, and inclusive he always was. Those qualities are something that I will continue to improve on myself, as well as instilling them into my children’s lives. This is why for the month of September the JPO Foundation is challenging you to complete 40 Acts of Kindness in memory of James. This could be volunteering for a local charity, paying for someone’s meal behind you in the drive through, mowing the grass for an elderly neighbor, donating toys to children in need, or simply going out of your way to check in on a family or friend that you haven’t seen in a while. With the pandemic continuing to surge through our country, people are feeling more isolated and hopeless than ever. A simple phone call or text is all it might take to change this outcome for another family. This pandemic has closed us off from so many people that we love. If you or someone you know is in a crisis or is struggling with their mental health, please encourage them to seek help. Notify that person’s family/friends that they are struggling and stay in contact with them to ensure their safety. Staying silent about a loved one’s mental health struggles is never the answer.

The fight to break this statistic is far from over, but I can tell you personally the fight is well worth it when you lose someone that you love.

Let’s keep James’ selfless legacy alive and help brighten someone’s day. James was the epitome of kindness and I know that he will continue to inspire us each and every day.

There are so many wonderful memories I have with James. From (obviously) caps to senior prom to visiting each other at college and tobogganing (while driving him crazy that I couldn’t get the word right), cottages, weddings, to phone calls that were too far between and always ended with “love ya, Welches. We gotta do this more!” One of my favorite memories was driving somewhere with him, learning new songs and singing old ones together. We all knew James’ love of music.

Well, Mrs. O’Connell reached out to me recently and asked if I would record a song for her that Kelly introduced her to, Charlie Puth’s “See You Again.”  She sent it to some family, but asked me to share it here too, along with my message to her.

“I hope you like it. I just love the song. I read something the other day I wanted to share. ‘The size of your grief is a reflection of the depth of your love.’ James was so loved. I miss him so much. This one is for him.
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All my love,
Annie”